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Thursday, August 02, 2007




新不了情 万芳

心若倦了 泪也干了
这份深情 难舍难了
曾经拥有 天荒地老
已不见你 暮暮与朝朝
这一份情 永远难了
原来时还能再度拥抱
爱你的人如何死守到老
怎样面对一切我不知道
回忆过去痛苦的相思忘不了
为何你还来拨动我心跳
爱你怎么能了 今夜的你应该明了
愿难了 情难了

It's quite an old movie theme song, which I happened to hear while I was at gg's birthday chalet. It's sad and touching and makes for great listening when you're feeling blue. I was never one for listening to upbeat music when I'm not in a good mood, slow songs with a nice melody are infinitely more preferable when I'm feeling slightly down.

Anyway with about 5hrs of sleep since yesterday and gg's birthday party being over (kind of used the occasion as a marker), it's becoming quite apparent and a little scary that school's going to start next week. It's worse than a progression from primary school to secondary school or secondary school to junior college, things were taken care of for you there. In university the modules and electives and whatnot require mountains of initiative and you don't really have concrete timetables till everything's confirmed after you finish adding and dropping subjects. In the meantime it's getting harder to survive on a $25 a week allowance so you get an increase to something slightly above $200? And even then with adult transport costs, food and entertainment, it's not enough. So what does the average enterpreneuring teen do? Get a job of course! Usually it's doing part time at a shop or taking on tuition assignments, all of which require further amounts of your time. In addition, for convenience (and without doing all the proper calculations of coe, fuel prices and how much you're killing the environment), you decide it's a good time to learn driving as well. -watches as more time flies out the window- I'm scared about starting university, of having to start all over, to know that you have to make new friends and all your achievements (significant or otherwise) count for nothing. Perhaps it's the school environment I've been in since I started formal education that has deluded me into thinking that maybe I'm better than the average. I'm afraid that it's all going to be proven untrue. I feel entirely unprepared for what's coming up, my past knowledge of biology, mathematics and chemistry can hardly be sufficient. Sigh unfortunately none of this is going to make school any much more to look forward to.