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Sunday, April 24, 2005All I need now, is an excuse to cry. Saturday, April 23, 2005Haiz. I'm becoming sian diao more and more easily these few days... Sorry to all the people whom have had to look at my black face during whatever lessons or co and such. 我就是提不起精神来, 不因为什么, 就这样而已... Anyway on the way home today, just by myself on the bus (where I am most prone to wild thoughts and bouts of oversentimentality), I was listening to a particular radio station when I heard the 5566 song, 守候. I remember listening to it over and over again during chinese lesson, because of some song writing programme the school had organised, and how laoshi would play it because she liked it too, and she owned the 5566 cd of course. Thinking of times like that, when we did mindless things like watching mtvs in the classroom, played random games on the class computer or just stayed indoors during recess trying to catch up on homework or talk. I miss my secondary school class, well most of them anyway. My ex table mate can stay as far away as she wish. Life is much more bearable without her around. Earlier in the morning, during co, I suddenly started missing my fellow batch dizi mates, namely ying ying, sab and xiwen. I miss the days when I could grab anyone of them to lian chang yin, lian xi qus, etc with. I miss the times when we had recess time "meetings" to talk about stuff, or how we'd give each other knowing looks during xiaozu when laoshi was around. I miss during xiaozu how they'd help to lian the juniors too, so that I could give my really red hands and/or the poor marker a rest. I miss the breaks or the periods before breaks, when everyone would just start lamenting about the sad state of their stomachs and how they were dying of hunger. Or the mornings of saturday practices, where juniors without fail, would ask that all important question of, "Where are we going for lunch?" at about 9 or 10 in the morning, barely an hour after co starts, maybe even earlier. Or maybe the juniors would start to remove their furry keychains from their didais and concoct random stories about koalas/people when miss chek wasn't lianning dizi. Or just stuff it down ger's jacket hood and wait for her reaction. =) I miss those days, I really do. Friday, April 22, 2005
Thursday, April 21, 2005NYCO SYF GOLD WITH HONOURS!!!!! Haha, you people really really rocked! From being worried about your hou ban pai and yin zhun, to wondering if you guys could make that jump from gold to gold with honours. =) I've never been more proud of you people, and it's times like these that make it hard to stop referring to nyco as we. Sad to say I couldn't be there physically, but cg, being the nice person she was, called me whilst you all were playing, and I managed to catch the main gist of it over the phone... Tapping my foot to the rhythm of xing kong, and bobbing along to feng nian ji, I must have really looked a sight with the handphone to my ear and an expressionless face... I would like to reminisce right now, especially since one of my classmates reminded me about syf 2 years ago, but I kind of don't have the time right now. Oh well, NYCO rocks! Always and forever! =) Love ya people lots! -hugs- XD
Tuesday, April 19, 2005I miss me time. I miss having time to myself to do whatever I want. I want to have this big window of time, find somewhere quiet and windy, sit down and do homework with music playing in the background. I want to be able to practise my dizi and actually enjoy it, by myself during that break, without disturbances from others or comments, no matter how useful... And I actually want time to sleep, such that I can last an entire day without yawning during lessons. I'm tired, sleepy and I need more time. I don't want to be torn apart by my commitments and I much less don't want to be defined by what my responsibilities are. I need time off from school. A day or two, completely school commitment free, and I'll be a much happier person. Sad to say, when I do return from my fictatious day offs, I'll just have more to do... All. Over. Again. Random question of the day: How do you know if someone likes you?
Sunday, April 17, 2005Bleh, I've been moody again lately. Perhaps it's due to the sudden increase in naggings from all around. Be it about lianning dizi (of which that stupid half note I still cannot get out properly), about how late I've been coming home, how I've been spending too much time outside and even about my cupboard being messy. Naggings are obnoxious, irritating things that can only be compared on a scale to be worse than long fingernails being dragged across a blackboard. Or maybe it's worse than having a fly constantly buzzing around your ear, knowing it's there, hearing it but not being able to get rid of it. After you shoo it away and think it's gone, it'll return again to land on your arm, leg etc, or just buzz back around... Oh well. And I'm also quite annoyed at not being able to go and watch ny for syf. It's also not so bloody easy to pon school when your parents don't want to write you a letter and you don't even get to miss school when you've got a fever, which makes faking something even worse (and harder too of course). Then by the time I finish school, results would be out and other assorted rubbish, so that's that. Besides that, the innumerous/innumerable tutorials I was saddled with throughout the day/week/weekend only served to make the day more grey. Which reminds me, I have to borrow notes and stuff to copy from because I missed a few lectures and tutorials for sparks... Ultimate sian diaoness. In other news, I watched the xiaopin item on saturday, both versions, and they're both good! Although I like the original one better now, it connects better with the audience and makes you think about it more. The stand by item is very humourous and maybe even lame at times, but rather forgettable... It reduces the severity of the issues it discusses, and presents everything in a light hearted manner. But still not as memorable as the other one. =) Oh yar, we also had o2 on saturday, which wasn't a very big or major event due to the turn up, but was cosy and like a sing song session? I don't know, but I felt very comfortable with all the people there, lep batchmates, seniors, huang cheng people... It's a nice feeling. =) Not bad, two paragraphs that were smiley worthy, my mood must be getting better... Another day of school tomorrow, make that another week... Nyco having syf on thursday morning... Jia you people! -hugs- Do yourself and everyone proud k? Will be looking forward to a very happy sms after the results are released hor... (You all had better remember to sms me...) Thursday, April 14, 2005I went back to ny again today, and I realised I still miss it a lot. The atmosphere, the white walls which aren't very clean already, but are still bright. The simplicity of the compound, the regularity of it's structure, the spaciousness of the stage... So many things that I used to take for granted, now I hardly even get to see. Even the small stretch of track and road we ran our 2.4 on, it looks so much more scenic than an entire route of track and track and track... Then I started getting a lot of emails from 14ers, 'cos it's 4/14's birthday today! I didn't even realise the significance of the date until the emails came in... Haven't been in a very good mood lately, a lot of things cluttering up my mind. So much so that I can't focus properly on one thing without thinking of another. And my commitments are overlapping... How am I supposed to choose? There can't always be a way to get the best of both worlds, and I know someday soon I'm going to have to make a decision... Sunday, April 10, 2005Third time I'm trying to type the same entry and yet now I'm still finding it hard to search for the right words to express myself with. (see how I'm fumbling...) Anyway we had xhc yesterday, and as usual, daoju rocked! Our xiao huang cheng item was seriously the best, especially since we had a very ai xian (expressive/creative/exaggerated etc) ru hua. And we had pro people like nic, huaming and jiching that refused to xiao chang even after seeing kj and his new voluptuous figure (courtesy of the balloons). Then of course, was the lame script and use of dialect! Haha, especially notable was the dark side part... And how no one knew how to say chi pang in hokkien. Oh well. =) Oh yar, jinhin gave each of us a cd full of pictures, of which two struck me most vividly. Those were the pictures of the amphitheatre, empty of people, props and equipment. A few scraps of paper and a yellow plastic bag are all that litter the floor. The bareness of the amphitheatre is disturbing, something inside me wants to go there and clutter it up with buckets of paint, newspapers, cardboard and boxes of things. Then surround it all with twine or raffia and claim that space. But then it would be too quiet, so maybe a radio could be lugged down, stuffed with a few jay chou cds and kept on till 8 or 9 at night. Even then, there would still be something missing, the people. Oh well. There's 2.4 tmr, and shell isn't going to be around to run with me... =( Napfa is miserable enough as it is, but without company, it's even worse! UGH! At least this is only going to last for one more year... After jc no more napfa... Right? Don't feel like doing anymore work, but must finish the chinese compo and copy over my math stuff. Btw, trigo is an annoying topic, so confusing and so many ways. Plus there are so many formulas to memorise... Sigh. Thursday, April 07, 2005Yay! Congratulate me, I'm busy. Happily busy. =) Being busy makes me feel wanted, and the good thing is that everything I'm busy with, I'm interested in. I kind of regret not taking an active interest in my life before, letting circumstances dictate my actions and just going with the general flow. Now I'm involved! But then again, I've got a lot of commitments now, and things just seem to overlap and overlap. Perhaps I'm trying to get myself occupied again, going home early after school and stoning in front of the computer doesn't equate to a day of fun for me. I need to be doing something relatively constructive, or be with people whose company I enjoy. I am now: -doing preparations for xiao pin -lianning for syf + sparks -helping out with LEP o2 -helping out with the class cip activity -asst ct rep (courtesy of sabotage/revoting by the class) -supposed to go for an interview for LEP scholarship/immersion programme Went back to ny for the first time this term, to listen to dizi. I was very to see (or rather not see) any of them referring to pus, since they all memorised it already. I was very happy that they were all taking syf very seriously, and I'm proud of the effort they put in for syf. Don't worry about the hou ban pai bit ok people? Just focus, stay alert and listen and everything will turn out fine. On the other hand I feel slack, like I'm not putting in enough effort for syf. Somehow I feel like I don't deserve to be here, something that could have been very probable if other dizi people stayed. =( I miss having very regulated practises, with someone in front telling you what to do and basically helping you to coordinate and blend seamlessly with the orchestra. All I can do now is to lian on the days I don't have co, especially since xhc ends this saturday, I should be more free. I'm a bit sad as well, that nearly all the activities are crammed on mondays, wednesdays, fridays and saturdays... Then my tuesdays and thursdays seem quite empty in comparison. Tomorrow's first four periods will be gone for council elections. I wish there was something we could do during that period... Maybe we'll discuss xhc or something. OH well I'm about to fall asleep in front of the computer... Yes, once again, so I shall not deny myself this sleep and go already... Wednesday, April 06, 2005I'm actually enjoying chemistry right now, the chapter on bonding. Drawing dot and cross diagrams are strangely theraputic. Drawing little adorable spots that are being shared with crosses to form molecules may not seem very exciting to most, (it isn't to me either) but it's just calming. I'm in a relatively better mood these few days, which is good. Thanks to all the people around me for condoning my weird behaviour etc. But besides my general good mood, it annoys me to no end, when people tap their feet on stage. Seriously, with solid floors it's not so bad. However when we're on the WOODEN stage, and you attempt to tap the beat/rhythm or are just excited and shake your legs (resulting in it hitting the stage floor) , the entire stage reverberates because of it. And it is extremely extremely annoying. The sound is annoying and the vibrations are annoying and I keep closing my eyes to prevent me from openly rolling them. Ugh. Frustrating, irritating sounds. =( |
