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Tuesday, August 09, 2005


Oh no, to think after a few, or maybe two happy posts, I'm back here with an annoyed one. =( Of course, I should go in chronological order, since I do like some sort of regularity in my life, especially since it isn't apparent in the tidiness of my table nor my handwriting.

But then again, it's much easier to do things in order, helps you remember better too. And again, back to reality. After the rather tame national day celebrations yesterday, or maybe I just didn't feel high enough? I went off with sam to watch charlie and the chocolate factory. The movie was quite disappointing I guess, much too morbid for my tastes. I know Roald Dahl was a dark author, but the movie added in additional things like Willy Wonka's family background and stuff like that, which seemed to make it deviate from the book. Also the bright cheery colours and synthetic objects made it seem even more macabre than it was originally meant to be? Or maybe I just wasn't getting the full picture from the book. The original book put across the morals regarding the importance of family in a more subtle and acceptable way for me I guess. Was the movie disappointing? In a way I guess it was, but... I guess I would have wanted to watch it anyway regardless of how the show turned out.

After that I wanted to join the class at kbox, but apparently they were done singing at 530. So I went home! Probably the earliest I've been home in quite a while. =) I guess I was probably happier with sam? Don't think my mood that day could have stood much niaoing without me getting annoyed or maybe blowing up. If anyone is still unsure, I DO NOT like him in that manner nor vice versa. Niaoing and rumours have their limits, and I think mine is being reached soon. Don't push the wrong buttons ok? Because I'd hate to have to blow up in front of everyone else. =)

Slept really early last night, 1040? Had a lot of things I was feeling not quite comfortable about, and normally after waking up from sleep, things seem much clearer and optimistic. I woke up the next day at about 9 plus, and was a bit annoyed that I didn't manage to sleep for 12 hours. But I just couldn't sleep any more, plus I had a meeting to attend later that day. After loitering around at home, packing bad and koping minutes from ger, I left the house, expecting a quite short meeting. Hopefully.

Unfortunately, like most things in life, things aren't what we wish they are, or were, or would be. So the meeting started late, it dragged, and dragged, for about 3 plus hours. The more it dragged, the more annoyed I got, and the more dead I got... Really stone and stone... Of course at the end, or near the end of the meeting, I started getting more and more pissed. If you have something to tell me, or something to say about me, please do it in a straight forward manner. Please do not attempt to zhi sang ma huai, becaue I'd sooner ignore you than listen anyway. And in any case, please figure out the difference between school and personal things, such that you do not accuse people of things without basis. I hope you realise already that I do not like you very much, and presumably the feeling is mutual. Which is good, since henceforth I can openly (actually I'm quite open le) show my displeasure. =) Lesser rubbish about having to pretend and stuff lahz

Met my friend later, who had been wandering for about as long as my meeting was? Sorry!! Haha, and city link was damn crowded 'cos of NDP. Managed to yak all the way and decided on coffee, since the fireworks wouldn't be starting so soon. After that we made our way to Jurong, where we saw huge crowds at the field and attempted to make our way to a spot where the fireworks were visible, but was relatively people free for the moment. Can't really remember where we were, but anyway the first fireworks were shockingly loud and abrupt. I remember staring in awe for a moment before frantically taking out my phone to video tape the shots. =) And of course learning from experience, I held the handphone but looked at the fireworks away from the phone (duh!) it was so pretty! Haha, I liked the part where many many many fireworks went off together, and the second round of fireworks, with the very very very nice (!!!) golden glittery stuff! =D

After that, well, it involved a lot of walking, which is immensely theraputic. =) But because of something that happened or rather something that I saw during the course of my day, I realised that life and everything it contains is transient. Everything is impermanent, and life is like a dream, as are dreams like life. The "Forever Friends!" printed so surely in the pages of an autograph book years ago in your childish handwriting, to whom does the book belong to? Do you remember? Do they remember? The words you felt so sure of when you dished it out, "Stay in contact ok? We'll always be friends." How far have you drifted apart? Do you know where they are now? How deep must friendships be before they never drift. How can you be sure things will never change? (Which is impossible, because things always do, and the most we can do is change with it)

Oh well, 6 hours of talking, 10 plus bus stops of walking, and I feel much better. Thanks. =)