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Wednesday, March 02, 2005


I started off this morning feeling quite down, for no apparent reason. A bit emotional maybe and definitely I was so bloody sleepy, that I actually slept from the time he came in (which was some way into bio) till we were supposed to greet him. Within that short span of a few minutes, I managed to fall into deep sleep... Unfortunately we had to do some Oral Presentation that day and I couldn't sleep the rest of the lesson, especially since I got niaoed on my speech + distracting actions + lack of eye contact + fidgeting + shifting of my weight from one foot to the other etc. I'm feeling quite miserably academically, especially after the chemistry test and practical, not to mention the release of the o level results and tomorrow's impending doom - biology lecture test. It may not sound that scary, but when it's on 5 topics, and you've only done 1 miserable topic which isn't even very important, you might start to freak out, or wallow in self pity, which is what I'm doing now. Today's the first time in a while I felt low after daoju. Maybe it's because the actual show is getting closer and everyone's nerves are a bit frazzled, so sometimes people start to get a bit tense. Somehow throughout the course of the day I managed to cut myself 5 times, since I now see 5 lines on my fingers... And then I also somehow managed to drop the canteen bench on my right foot, at which a nice blue black is in the midst of forming. Then of course had co auditions before daoju, happily screwed up most of it, since I wanted to go for daoju earlier. Then at daoju, I suddenly missed co (or rather the people inside) and wanted to go back, but I couldn't. =( We were also lianning huan chang, and now we're moved to stage left, with much more space, but is also disgustingly far from where are props are supposed to be! Meaning that each time the act changes, we move from the top right hand corner of the stage to the bottom left hand corner, move the prop around then go back to the top right hand corner. Then they say we're too slow, don't run, too noisy, not accurate etc. =( Swivel chairs are noisy nasty things, they're probably the only daojus that I will be happy to see go. I got rather irritable during daoju, to the point that I got annoyed with wq for whining in a kidding manner about how I didn't tell her where to put the props. I got fantastically defensive, then when we were supposed to paint the bottles, the paint looked gross! The lines were clearly visible and the paint was so thick and took so long to dry... =( It's times like these when I feel I can't do anything right, that the more you do, the more mess you create. Haiz. How awful.