sometimes glass glitters

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goodbye


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Saturday, March 26, 2005


From next week onwards, I'll attempt to go to school and be happy. No more phd as an excuse, and even if I do feel it, I'll try not to show it.

We've been having a lot of outings recently, meeting after school and just slacking/stoning together. If not to while time away, then just for the company, for knowing that you're around people who've been through the same things as you, for knowing that people around you care about the same things you do.

But yet in some way, I feel we're deluding ourselves. Things have already come to such a turn and we must learn to accept it. I feel like I'm more of trying to convince myself than others, but it's nearly impossible to continue like this forever. Other ccas will soon start to take priority, amongst studying for tests and doing tutorials. Then what happens?

I'm not going to claim I won't ever forget, because who knows? Someday, I might. And I'm not proposing that we forget either. To let go, is different from forgetting. Letting go means accepting the fact that things are as they are, huang cheng is over, people have to leave. But no one ever proclaimed that we should forget the spirit of huang cheng, or the people behind it.

And it is about time to let go, we cannot mope about in this little world of ours. As much as I'd like to think, the world doesn't revolve around hc, daoju, or our friendships. It won't wait for us to recover slowly from the habit of not going home early, or of missing familiar faces you always look out for in the mornings/afternoons.

I will miss everyone and everything, but I'm going to move on.