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more than diamonds

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goodbye


designer: eminence.
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Tuesday, October 19, 2004


Warning: below are incoherent, fragmented thoughts that follow no sequence except my personal whim and fancy, read at your own risk.

Today was my last official day of school and strangely, I didn't feel much at all. Perhaps it was that the fact hasn't quite sunk in yet, the fact that it was my official last day as a nanyang girl. I'm graduating on Saturday, and from then on I won't even be a nanyang girl anymore, probably some nameless senior or alumni member. Maybe on Saturday it will all sink in, that 458 of us will graduate after about 4 years in the school. I'll miss everything about it, the building, the food, the teachers, the rules even, my batchmates, juniors, seniors, everyone and everything that has shaped and molded me for the past four years into who I am now. I've definitely matured, how much is a different matter. I've grown up and found my place amongst my school mates and friends. Learnt how to tolerate (better) and avoid conflict, while at the same time finding true friendships that hopefully will stand the test of time.

In class I've found people to hang around with, some friends for four years, others two or three, but does it really matter? Time is immeasurable, and so is friendship. I'll certainly miss the times when we bum around in class, spontaneously burst into song (Spongebob Squarepants Theme or Happy Birthday being the song of choice), especially in math class. Or the times in chinese, where we rush to finish zuo wens and ying yong wens by the end of the lesson, and laoshi going around telling us to be "guai la guai la" and "zuo zuo wen le la". Or during chem, where nearly anything can happen! Topics range from exploding hydrogen cars to organic chemistry, or boys from certain schools and certain incidents which happen during practical exams. Or Physics! Where we all try hard to solve physics problems, figure out Mr Tan's second son's name (quote from Physics teacher, "Mr X has two sons, his first son is called Ray, what is his second son's name?"), and get early recess all at the same time. Or during bio too, where we read cartoons at the start of the lesson and discuss the human anatomy like it's no one's business!

I especially adore CO, I can still remember the first time I walked into the room, blur as always, faced with all the foreign instruments and seniors I had never seen before. Then somehow or another, I got into dizi, had my very first try in the store room, sitting on the floor with jiamin and another senior. Apparently my little fingers weren't used to staying on the dizi, so I kept playing with both of them up, distorting the balance and all. Then I was warned that if I kept doing that I'd get my fingers chopped off, so I started staring at my fingers when I played, which resulted in the hole moving further and further away from my mouth, so I couldn't get any notes out at all. After that was brought to the toilet to stare at the mirror in an attempt to figure out the position at which my dizi should be at. Then from 2, we grew to a healthy batch size of 4, consisting of sab, xiwen, ying ying and I. We were all uniquely different, with different priorities, concerns and expectations, but most importantly, we all got along. Lessons with laoshi were dreaded, resulting in us becoming exceptionally diligent every thursday, where we would borrow the cello&bass room to practice in an attempt to brush up our skills before friday where laoshi would come. And laoshi's presence didn't have to be announced, our more than able olfactory cells could detect him floors and classrooms away. From carrying instruments at SYF 2001, to performing in our first ever concert in 2002, the very long yue er gao, very short san shi li pu, annoying 123 xiao jie of long and yinzhun of ah li yu ah li. We progressed from being juniors to having our first batch of juniors, the current sec 3s. The year after that, SYF 2003, an entire year of being on a emotional roller coaster. The preparations, ups and downs, the many practices and frustrations all came to an end that fateful day. The j1s graduated, much to our dismay and regret, after the arts festival. How they guided us and helped us along after jiamin's bactch graduated, how they practiced with us and worried for us, how we bonded with them, laming around, niaoing them, disturbing the sl and bringing closer the senior junior gap. Then it was 2004, a tumultuous year as well, the co was dispirited and concert was drawing closer everyday. Being part of the new committee, I found myself much more involved with co, which is a good thing, and although I keep complaining about the hardships of sl-dom, I never regretted it. Okay, not like I have much to regret, since it wasn't exactly my (first) choice. But the experiences and how I got to know the juniors could never have been exchanged, the practices, compromises and decisions to be made all stacked up together to form that big part of my this year, my sl life. And I can quite safely say that guan yue are in relatively safe hands, (sheng suo di sls) so there's practically not much to worry about. But I guess it's some sort of hou yi zheng, that you can't quite keep entirely away from your group after watching them for an entire year.

Well, school takes up about more time from me than I spend at home, but it's been so fulfilled that I know I will get bored once it stops. And well, here it is, study leave, in about another 1 month, everything would have been decided, nothing to be done anymore, and then there would be promises to fulfill, places to go, presents to buy. But that's for another time. You should treasure your time in nanyang, it goes by very quickly, and then you'll wonder what you've been doing, what impact you've created in other people's lives?

Okie, I think I've been emo enough for now, back to chemistry then, wish me good luck for practical in 2 days and the O levels in 12.